Make My Life Complete
Saturday, August 27th, 2005
" However, I consider my life worth nothing in me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me - the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace."
I often see this cityscape on the travel catalogues and international magazines, and i would often tell myself that one day i will see that place. I will be in that place!
It was a dream come true when my previous company asked me to attend a conference in that place. I was so excited and at the same a little bit scared because that will be my first time to travel outside my country and i’ll be travelling alone. Unknown to me, my "Father" has another purpose for my trip.
The moment the plane landed at the airport, i can’t explain the excitement in my heart. I thought it was just those first timer’s thing… but there is something else… something beyond my imagination, something beyond my understanding and comprehension…
Then i asked, Dad why am i feeling this way? And my Dad answered, you will know in due time…
Then my dad showed me things that broke my heart… beyond those happy smiles that you can see on the native’s faces, u will see a huge hole in their lives. They are successful and yet they are poor… they have almost anything, except one thing… and that is the love of my Father.
My Father told me to love those people, that even they turned their backs on him, he still love them very much and wants to be with them… at that point, i can feel my Father’s love and compassion on them… he put this love and compassion on me that consumes my being… but who would be willing and brave enough to go and tell this people that my Father loves them very much? i Don’t want to go! I don’t want to say in this place for a long time… I have other plans for my life! I’m enjoying the things that i have right now! my work, my family, my friends… please Father not me…. not this time…
I left the place uncomfortably, as if im leaving a part of my heart on that place… i can’t understand… and i don’t want to understand… i am afraid of the things that i’ll discover if i ever try to explore this feeling…
After a year, i am back to that place. The very place and the same people that my Father asked me to love… and this time the love is so great that i can’t ignore it anymore… i heard my Father’s voice… my children are lost… they don’t even recognize my voice… they don’t know me… but i love them dearly… i want to show my love to them… but who will go for me??? this time, i said… my Father, i will go… send me…
And from that time on… i will always dream and see visions of that place, of the faces of those people… of the things that i will do for my Father… Now, i don’t have any plans except the plans that my Father has for me… I don’t have any other ways, except the way that my Father is preparing for me… I don’t have any goals, except the goal that i am aiming for my Father…
As of the moment, i live, i eat and i breathe for that place… i know, the time for me to go is so near… i can even smell it… i can even hear the sound of the plane taking off and landing in… i can even see their faces, hear their voices, their language (which i am studying now)…
ahhhhh my Father is really preparing this place for me… and once i accomplish the things that he has for me… that will be the time that i can say… Father, i completed the race… and yes Father, you made my life’s purposes complete!
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NOte: The picture above was taken by a dear friend Mr. Milko Chua who is living in Guangdong, China right now. It is the City landscape of HK… he took the picture of HK on a mountain outside the island of HK… thanks Milko for allowing me to use your pix… see you soon!
