Journies of the Heart

“Now, I can take the time, I can see my life… As it comes up shining now. Reaching out to touch you, I can feel so much… Since I found you… Looking through the eyes of love” (Looking Through the Eyes of Love, Melissa Manchester)

I’ve been sitting on this spot at Mc Donalds for almost an hour now (we usually go to mc do not to eat but to read books or study because it is much cooler, libre pa aircon hehehe).  I am engrossed with learning how to understand the complexities of writing the chinese character when i noticed this couple sitting across my table.  What caught my attention was not their noise, but the silent way they communicate with each other. I didn’t notice that i was staring at them or observing them, i did not know for how long but there is something about them that really made me look. 

The guy is in his late thirty’s, and the girl at her late twenty’s.  The moment i look at them, never… not even one word escaped from their lips.  Each of them had a medium size softdrink and nothing else. 

They would looked at each other from time to time and smiled.  Occasionally sipping their softdrinks, then look at each other again and smiled.  The guy would touch the arm of the girl, the girl would looked at the guy and they will both smiled.  The girl would reached for the hand of the guy, then they will looked at each other again and smiled.  It looked like an old Charlie Chaplian movie.  All actions but no talkies.

But the craziest thing is that… as they smiled to each other, i can feel the love that radiated from them… Funny huh? here i am telling you guys to go ahead and tell to your love ones how you feel not just by actions but also with words, and yet here i am witnessing the love from this two silent people.  The look and the love that sparked between them is enough to power up the whole place.  It was so strong that i can actually feel it (ako lang kaya or me ibang tao rin na nakapasin? hehehe).

Haaaaaayyyy… love, love, love… i may not explain the complexities… or justify the reasons… i’m not an expert on the subject.  Gosh! i’m not even sure kung “sya” na nga yung guy for me… but one thing i am sure of…

Sometimes… love is just there, looking right at our face, under our nose… we are not just paying attention to it… so it slipped away…

oh! And by the way… nope, they are not deaf and mute people… caused i heard them calling honey to each other when they were leaving the place…

" Let me love you, from the bottom of my heart… Let me love you
till all the stars surrender to the dark and the words sometimes fail me I just want to say… That nothing or no one’s ever touched me this way… Let me love you from the bottom of my heart.. " (Jed Madella)

Today, i read an article about how to listen for love.  The sentences/words are not new to me.  I mean i have read and heard those thing before.  From the magazines, radios, tvs, to Sunday sermons.  And yet, it always fascinates and interest me (just like other people im sure… hehehe) to talk about love. 

The article stated that we tend to overlooked or should i say overlistened to love.  When our parents got angry with us because we did something wrong (especially if we put our lives in danger deliberately or not) , we tend to focus on the negative things that they say.  We didn’t even think that the reason they were angry was because they were scared that something bad happened to us.  They love us too much that they do not want any thing to hurt us.

When our teacher got angry because we failed the exam, it doesn’t mean that they were telling us that we are stupid, or we are hopeless.  But they just wanted us to excel in our studies because they care about our futures.

But why is it that when you truly love a person/s, it seems hard to say that you love them.  Why is it that we are deaf to the love that they wanted to communicate with us? It’s hard to say the words, as if something is blocking your mouth to actually say it or blocking your ears to hear it. Why is it that the things that matters most are also the things that we neglected most.   Like saying "I LOVE YOU".

We tend to show our love through other ways.  Like saying, "ingat ka ha!" or "wag ka magpapagabi delikado panahon ngayon" or "wag ka masyado magpapagod at wag ka magpapatuyo ng pawis baka ka magkasakit".  For other people, this constant reminders are irritating, "parang sirang plakang paulit-ulit".  But if we dig deeper to the meaning, if we listen closely… it only means " kasi mahal kita". 

You can say that, "ok lang naman yun eh.  Kahit di ko sabihin na mahal ko sila alam na nila yun!".  But you know what? One thing that i have learned, sometimes people need affirmations of love. Doing things, giving gifts etc. just to say i love you is not enough.  Sometimes , they wanted to hear the actual words.  Kasi iba ang dating… sabi nga eh "me arrived".  it’s different when you hear those words, especially kung galing sa puso.  May kilig kang mararamdaman.  Corny man pakinggan, dyahe man sabihin pero wala pa ring tatalo kung maririnig mo ang mga katagang ito… I love you… Mahal Kita… Iniibig kita.

So kaibigan ano pa hinihintay mo? wag mo na sayangin ang panahon na iparamdam at sabihin sa minamahal mo ang nararamdaman mo.

So, paano… ingat kayo ha… wag kayo magpapagod masyado at wag magpapatuyo ng pawis sa katawan at baka magkasakit kayo… ayoko kasing mabalitan na me sakit kayo or me nangayri hindi maganda sa inyo… lam nyo kung bakit?

KASI…. MAHAL KO KAYO!